And.. this is for you, S..
The mementos are puzzling inside my head, i try to piece them together and come up with you, the memory of you, as a result.
i still can feel the warmth of your breath and smell your scent when u were lying
beside me, whispering “I love you..” while your hands encircle me.
it was only 24 hours since we first dated, I have this strong feeling that we’ve
had the connection thousands and thousands years before. we got married, we’re
having two daughters and a son, and a dog named Nazi.
then we woke up in another morning, I made u a cup of coffee and a plate of hainanese chicken rice for breakfast.
“are you gonna leave me? Are we getting divorce?” I asked you.
“no, i’m just going to work…” you answered.
the drugs just never work…
i love u.. i love u… i do.. all the tears rolled from those words. u left with such
a misery of misperceptions. but hey… someday somewhere in new york, we’d
deliver pizzas at days, make love in a refridgerator box at nights, Fill the
crosswords at dusks, we hug and we kiss at dawns.
turning your step back again and fetching me up to the dinner, tobiko and unagi for
today, picking the cigarette from your lips away by my chopsticks. lying on the
car cap, counting stars in the sky above..
“see, that’s the cassiopeia and the other is ophiucus..” you said.
We’re holding on embrace, breathing the kisses, swimming in tears, dancing in the music of laughters…
la.. la.. la.. la vie en rose..
Hold me close and hold me fast
The magic spell you cast
This is La vie en rose..
When you kiss me heaven sighs
And tho I close my eyes
I see La vie en rose..
When you press me to your heart
I’m in a world apart
A world where roses bloom..
And when you speak…angels sing from above
Everyday words seem…to turn into love songs
Give your heart and soul to me
And life will always be
La vie
en rose..
………….
Suddenly,
all the spotlights are turned off.
i hear your murmuring voice but i barely see your face. the long way has
separated us away from the lemon tree, and all i can see is an empty road. i’m
reaching through and hurted by pieces of glasses.
“don’t go there, u’ll get hurt… it’s so dark in here..” I’m trying to warn you, but i
cant even hear my own voice.
i’m feeling your wings’ feather touched my face, but i don’t know what’s it’s
colour.
I feel suffocate.. I lost my breath..
the rainbow has faded, my dream has come to an end..
all i can take is only the fractures of memory.
Im trying to piece them together, all over again..
i need valiums.
oh
God, please…
